Tonight I came to my last ever Souled Out. If I ever end up coming back to FACC from NW Church after my 3 month trial period is over, I made a promise that I will never be a part of Souled Out again. I am just too old, and a lot of memebers there are also too old or getting to that point where they should leave. But we got ready for Youth Sunday by creating some videos to invite people to SOYS. That was pretty much the night in general.
During that time however I got to have some friendly debate with Jason about the future of Souled Out. I explained that as part of the people that technically should not be a part of Souled Out in the first place (including Jason, Ian, Twins, Errol, Jorge, and soon to be Joseph, and Janina), we should be taking time out to train the younger students (Alyssa, Kenneth, Nathan, etc.) on how to become leaders. This is something that has eluded them in the past.
The reason why I expressed that is because I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that if for some reason all of the older gen left Souled Out at the same time, the younger gen would be more lost than a mouse looking for cheese in a lab maze. It's something that I don't want to happen even though I'm not a part of this church after April, but eventually the older gen must leave. It is unhealthy for them to stay with Souled Out. Look at the Twins. I mean, they're playing Yu-Gi-Oh! with 12 year old 6th graders and middle schoolers at the age of 19, for crying out loud. And Jason should be stepping away from Souled Out and focusing on his Young Adult Ministry, something I definitely applaud for him doing in the past, but he has since failed to keep it up. Ian is 24, enough said.
I also got to thinking, if Souled Out lost its older gen, we would probably be down to less than 6 people left in the group. Currently it's already at an all time low in attendance and with the mind set of Filipinos and their introverted methods of life, there is virtually no way that the younger gen would be able to recover their numbers.
Which brings me to my point: After this Youth Sunday, do away with it. Obviously you can see that virtually no one is interested in doing it already. Think about it, Jason and myself have basically created Youth Sunday from scratch by ourselves for the past 3-4 Youth Sundays. No one else is offering a hand in it. So just get rid of it. There is only so much that Frankie can do with 6 people. You've already lost the worship team and many of the people that actually take the name of Souled Out seriously.
Get rid of SOYS. Just for now. I say wait for the numbers of people to recover and discover hidden talents in the kids these days that you could use in the future. If a kid is tastefully creative, put him on the creative team. If someone can play an instrument, put him on the worship team. If they tithe, put them on the offering team. Heck if you wanna keep it, only do it once a year instead of twice so you'd have 11 months to prepare for it. Use the 11 months to prepare for it so it doesn't seem like some half assed attempt at making a worship service. Rome wasn't built in a day, you know.
Give it a rest Souled Out. Obviously you're sick of it and I can tell.
And for old times' sake, thanks for the memories, Souled Out. I just wish I had a picture to show them.
Psalm 98:4,
Kuya Billy
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Late Souled Out Rant
Last Sunday I officially made the decision to permanently join NW Church as a worship intern. This of course meant that I had to tell the FACC kids that I was leaving. As much as I don't like how things are being run at FACC and Souled Out, the truth is that Souled Out has been in my life for 10 years and no matter what they will always be my second family. Because of how I feel about Souled Out today, I could have easily just have jumped ship to NW without telling a soul that I was leaving, but I would lose their respect and that's something I don't want happening.
Anyway, that night before Souled Out was officially over, I told Souled Out the situation and said that I would be starting my tenure at NW Church on the first week of May. I also explained that originally I was slated to start in the middle of April, but I wanted to be a part of one last Youth Sunday before I left, which will be on the last week in April.
But does anyone care? FTMP, No.
Jason was all set to make everyone leave before I said my piece, but then he decided to say some tedious bullshit that I'm pretty sure no one even remembers. Hell, I don't, mostly cause none of it was related to me. It wasn't even one of those, "just because one person is leaving doesn't mean that we're gonna fall apart" speeches he does almost every week during worship practice. Jason just always wants the last word in EVERYTHING.
As a matter of fact what I was supposed to do was tell Souled Out during Highs And Lows, but we were not able to do that cause he decided that other people's are not as important as watching a CollegeHumor prank from Streeter to Amir. Then the rest of Souled Out we did a half assed attempt at trying to get ready for Youth Sunday. I am delaying my move to NW because of Souled Out's biggest day of the year and we're gonna half ass it?
Something tells me I should have just started at NW mid April if I knew that Youth Sunday was gonna end up like every Youth Sunday under Jason's administration: half assed and unmemorable.
It seemed that out of everybody that was there for Souled Out, the only people that even talked about me leaving were the Twins. You guys who follow my blogs on BlogSpot and MySpace know that I have major issues with the Twins, Paulo in particular. But what I do respect out of them is that they actually remember that I have dedicated 10 years of my life to FACC and Souled Out. Jason, Errol, and the Alcantaras seem to be completely oblivious to that. The Twins and I have grown up together all those years and even though we may have problems with the way we do certain things, each of us shows compassion for every major decision we make. When we talked about the move that day, even for a short time, I actually felt some sort of level of respect was given to me, something I have never been given in a while by anyone from Souled Out.
The Twins know when respect is due and I appreciate it.
But the fact that Jason decided to leave my leave as a backthought, that was wrong. When I stepped up to be the leader while he and his brother went to NY, All I got was a simple thank you the day he came back. I actually had to get him to say it that day. Then during practice, he doesn't even recognize that I took up the leader spot for him those two weeks. He just goes on saying more tedious bullshit nobody ever remembers. Him passing over me leaving for NW is IMO absolutely unacceptable and I will not tolerate something of that magnitude to be left alone.
Maybe I should have just left. Judging by the mindsets of the kids at Souled Out I would be forgotten by the day after Youth Sunday anyway, no matter how long I poured my heart out for these kids all these years.
Psalm 98:4,
Kuya Billy
Anyway, that night before Souled Out was officially over, I told Souled Out the situation and said that I would be starting my tenure at NW Church on the first week of May. I also explained that originally I was slated to start in the middle of April, but I wanted to be a part of one last Youth Sunday before I left, which will be on the last week in April.
But does anyone care? FTMP, No.
Jason was all set to make everyone leave before I said my piece, but then he decided to say some tedious bullshit that I'm pretty sure no one even remembers. Hell, I don't, mostly cause none of it was related to me. It wasn't even one of those, "just because one person is leaving doesn't mean that we're gonna fall apart" speeches he does almost every week during worship practice. Jason just always wants the last word in EVERYTHING.
As a matter of fact what I was supposed to do was tell Souled Out during Highs And Lows, but we were not able to do that cause he decided that other people's are not as important as watching a CollegeHumor prank from Streeter to Amir. Then the rest of Souled Out we did a half assed attempt at trying to get ready for Youth Sunday. I am delaying my move to NW because of Souled Out's biggest day of the year and we're gonna half ass it?
Something tells me I should have just started at NW mid April if I knew that Youth Sunday was gonna end up like every Youth Sunday under Jason's administration: half assed and unmemorable.
It seemed that out of everybody that was there for Souled Out, the only people that even talked about me leaving were the Twins. You guys who follow my blogs on BlogSpot and MySpace know that I have major issues with the Twins, Paulo in particular. But what I do respect out of them is that they actually remember that I have dedicated 10 years of my life to FACC and Souled Out. Jason, Errol, and the Alcantaras seem to be completely oblivious to that. The Twins and I have grown up together all those years and even though we may have problems with the way we do certain things, each of us shows compassion for every major decision we make. When we talked about the move that day, even for a short time, I actually felt some sort of level of respect was given to me, something I have never been given in a while by anyone from Souled Out.
The Twins know when respect is due and I appreciate it.
But the fact that Jason decided to leave my leave as a backthought, that was wrong. When I stepped up to be the leader while he and his brother went to NY, All I got was a simple thank you the day he came back. I actually had to get him to say it that day. Then during practice, he doesn't even recognize that I took up the leader spot for him those two weeks. He just goes on saying more tedious bullshit nobody ever remembers. Him passing over me leaving for NW is IMO absolutely unacceptable and I will not tolerate something of that magnitude to be left alone.
Maybe I should have just left. Judging by the mindsets of the kids at Souled Out I would be forgotten by the day after Youth Sunday anyway, no matter how long I poured my heart out for these kids all these years.
Psalm 98:4,
Kuya Billy
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